Forever Missed: My Big Brother, Buck Adams

As morning broke today, a peculiar sensation washed over me. Something felt oddly amiss – an unsettling shift in the air that I couldn’t quite put my finger on. The world outside seemed to continue in its rhythm, yet a disconcerting feeling lingered.

Then it suddenly dawned on me. The 28th of October isn’t just another day on the calendar but a sad milestone marking yet another year since the untimely passing of my beloved big brother, Buck Adams.

A staggering 15 years have slipped by since that fateful day. Yet I still find myself grappling with disbelief every single October. Buck, with his boisterous laughter and infectious vitality, seemed invincible to his close friends and family. He was the one whom I imagined would outlive us all.

The Legacy of Buck Adams

Buck was the guy who believed he could put rocket ships on the moon (that he would build in his garage), and turn a low-budget adult movie into an epic action film. He was not just my big brother – he was everyone in the industry’s big brother, and many people loved Buck as much as I do. He was just one heck of a nice guy.

Beyond his on-screen persona, Buck was celebrated for his commitment to advocating for performers’ rights. He was known for his sense of humor, generosity and solidarity, often standing up for those who struggled to make their voices heard in the industry. His untimely death in 2008 left a void in the industry, but his legacy continues to inspire and shape the world of adult film.

Each day is marked by his absence. Every shared joke he would have loved, every family gathering that feels incomplete without him, serves as a poignant reminder of the void he left behind. I miss you every day, big brother. You may have departed from our lives, but your spirit remains interwoven in our memories. Until we meet again, dear Buck, rest well.

With all my heart, your Kid Sister.